The I Ching’s Song

On December 4th of 2011, it was just at the last turn into the famous and infamous to some, Golden Age of 2012.  Would it be golden or would it be more like fried liver.  Sorry to those who are liver lovers.  I’m not one of them.  I arrived with a very different feeling coming back to the place I had previously spent 3.5 months volunteering.  This time I came back from the sacred valley a much different person with the knowledge that I had to take on this challenge of being a facilitator for the retreats.  I would be the “go to man” for everything.  Though I knew the challenges would be great what actually became my greatest challenge was realizing that I was doing something on a deeper level which I’ve waited 8+ years to achieve.  That thing that I’m achieving is stepping, finally, into my own true personal power.  My higher self’s plan was brilliant and I knew I had to take this road to finally punch through a blockage that I have not been able to open and step through and move forward with who I truly am.

I came back with a bit of fear and trepidation about what I was getting myself into.  The tensions were high because I came back with a retreat in progress.  The retreat had been in full swing for about a week.  Being short a volunteer you could see and hear the tiredness in everyone’s voices.  You could see it in their demeanor and their faces, as well.  Everyone was so excited to see me because they knew I could bring relief to them.  I’m certain there were other reasons for their excitement but it didn’t seem to matter to me what the motivation for coming back was.  I was on my own mission accepting one of the most life changing opportunities I’ve ever been presented with.  I even mentioned it before a few blogs ago.  I knew this was going to be big for me.

The wet weather kicked in.  I was put to work a few days after I recovered from the travel.  I slowly integrated into the retreat.  I began getting to know the guests but still kept a little distance because I was so uncertain as to why I had come back.  The rains came and stayed for days.  It began to depress me.  The stress levels of the other staff members were very high and I was being tasked with learning everything Jill and Casey knew about running this retreat center in a limited time frame of about four weeks.  They had been doing this for the last 2 1/2 years.  I basically followed them all around and we discussed many things that I would be responsible for.   The list was overwhelming.  I fell into fear but it wasn’t affecting my ability to focus on the fact that I came here to do something very important for myself even though I didn’t fully understand the scope of it.  I went through about a two week period where I kept telling myself that there’s no way I can do the same job that two of them have been doing for 2+ years.  I actually began to panic.  I began to have some serious discussions with my higher self and he convinced me that all was in divine order and that I would not be given more than I could handle.  Well, I kinda took a we’ll wait and see  attitude BUT with an amazing, peaceful energy surrounding me.  I began to discover that I was receiving this strength that seemed to come out of now where.  If I go into my third-eye view I could see this white, bluish, gold column of light coming down through my head and filling my body.  I knew I had made an important connection and that this connection was what would be carrying me through this challenge.

This is when things began to shift.  I slowly became more and more comfortable with everything I was learning.  Fortunately, I knew a lot of it from being a volunteer the previous winter (June through September is South America’s winter).  But there were aspects of my duties that would take a lot of conscious coordination with shamans, artists, the shipibo care-taking family, communication with the community members (as we get our water and electricity from the village of Nueva Luz and I have to communicate in spanish), coordinating cultivating jobs for the workers, coordinating duties with our domestic helper, Hilda, mixing with the guests and helping them to process, coordinating with the kitchen on meals and shopping for food and supplies everyday, bookkeeping and budgeting (created a few spreadsheet to hold all the financial data for easy review when Jill and I talk online), repairing anything to do with the electrical and water systems, making sure that ceremonies are coordinated, attending all ceremonies as a facilitator, coordinating duties for the volunteers, working on extra building type projects like tiling, construction of shelves to hold our gas and paint cans, responding to all the guests requests (and there are many!).  Gosh, did I miss anything?

So, all of the training and prep has paid off.  Since Jill and Casey left my productivity has been better than it has been since my days at Microsoft.  The retreat land is ready to receive the guests, the food shopping for the next few days is done, I’ve got all the workers reporting on their next days and have been paying them, keeping the books with the new spreadsheets, all of the shamans have been notified of their ceremonies nights (and hopefully they show up…it’s been known to happen), spirits are higher between the three of us and tomorrow we pick up 9 of our 12 guests at the airport and take another wild journey into Madre Ayahuasca realm again.

My attitude has been very positive.  I feel like I’m receiving a tremendous amount of assistance keeping my head straight on everything.  This job actually rivals my job at Microsoft back in the 90′s.  I always seem to do well with these challenges.  But it’s been awhile since I’ve had the drive to want to take on these challenges again.  I was very afraid of myself.  I think there was a subconscious self-loathing that I really never saw.  Self-judgment healing has been big on my list since about 2006 when I really began to climb out of my Dark Night of the Soul period.  Once I mostly past that then it became time to get to know who I truly am again.  My wings are growing and they are feeling strong and willing.  Things will go wrong, hell, they already have.  But my response to these challenges has also dramatically shifted.  I am now better able to accept any and everything that happens.  It could be the death of my Grandmother (which recently occurred while I was in Peru).  I’ve put on the back shelf much of the spiritual knowledge that I had acquired before coming down.  I feel like I’m wiping the slate clean to be refilled with on what is for my highest and best good.

I also agree with what my friend Gary said the other night, that you have to be in complete presence with the moment at all times.  The energy down here is filled with change in some ways.  In other ways, Pucallpa is still very stuck in the 80′s.  But in other ways when I interact with the energy you literally never know what is going to happen from one moment to the next.  The week before Jill and Casey left, the big diesel generator that powers our lights and the water pump to bring us water to our tanks broke down and needed several Soles (pronounced:  Soul-lays) worth of repairs.  We ended up paying just over half of the repair bill.  The villagers here live in what Americans would call extreme poverty.  But they still have to pay their bills to the village of Nueva Luz for gas for the diesel generator to power the village.  That meant not only would we not be getting power until it got fixed (which could take several days) but it also meant that we would not have any water pumped to our tanks.  Water is nearly everything for this retreat.  We’d have to cancel a retreat if we couldn’t have our water.

Luckily, that got fixed and we were able to get to our tanks water again.  Now I’m feeling better about Jill and Casey leaving at this point.  They left and the fun already started to begin.  A few days later the water pump broke down.  It was determined it couldn’t be fixed and a new one needed to be bought.  After being told this I realized the ramifications of not having something done in the next day or two.  We were one week from hosting a large retreat and no way to pump water to our tanks again.  I had to make a split decision in that moment (all in Spanish, of course) and decided to loan the village of Nueve Luz 800 soles to buy and install a new pump.  They told me that they would pay the money back minus our share of the cost and sure enough they kept their word.  They have already brought back 500 soles with the promise for the balance in two weeks.  I felt very comfortable with my decision even though I was a little afraid of Jill and Casey’s reaction.  It all turned out great.  The pump got installed and we have more water than we’ll probably need for the entire retreat.  But it’s always good to have more now.  After all, it is a bit of a process to pump the water from the lower receiving tank to the upper two tanks.  I have to bring a car battery down from the house’s chargers.  Then I have to hook the pump up, put on the right fittings for pumping the water, prime the pump and then connect the hose that leads to the upper tanks.  Sounds pretty easy but it does take a bit of time.  Then I have to approximate the time it will take for the pump to finish and make sure that it doesn’t run dry or it could burn the motor.  Then I have to tear it all down and put everything back.  All this actually takes about 15 minutes.  But on this job 15 minutes can be a lot of very valuable time.

I began to reflect on my journey here in Peru a lot more with a little more time on my hands.  I decided that it was time to visit Madre Ayahuasca, doing some communing and healing with her through drinking the medicine.  My main intention was that I wanted her to help prepare me for running this retreat.  I wanted my mind to be clear and my body to be healthy.  I wanted to be in a true spirit of Service to Others.  There was no question.  I was ready for this challenge.  I have also been dealing with an old back injury that has been very painful.  With the amazing help of my friends through a Facebook post and requests of other friends not on Facebook, my back issue mostly resolved itself in about 3 days.  Man that was great!  I was very grateful.  (Update:  my back issue tried to come back with a vengeance and it was concerning me again until the Universe, or I AM, brought this unexpected guest to the Pucallpa airport as I was picking up the original guests.  She came from Iquitos with one of our guests with the hope that we would have an opening.  We normally screen people through an application process, but something told me that it would be a good idea to accept her request to begin the retreat with the rest of us.  Split decision again but it felt right.  It turns out that she, the new guest, was a Norwegian massage therapist.  And she was good.  She didn’t get rid of the problem completely but I could tell she knew what she was doing.  Today, however, my back feels better and better.  I manifested a person who could help me continue to heal this back injury.  Awesome!)

Well, my first ceremony was with a batch of Ayahuasca that we wanted to test.  The batch has been reconstituted and reduced to produce a strong product.  It worked.  It was called The Love batch.  I purged from just about every orifice in my body for a few hours.  I knew this was big.  It was difficult and at times I wished I hadn’t drank the medicine.  I also wondered if I wasn’t supposed to be drinking anymore.  In a previous, unintended time when I drank a little more medicine than a facilitator’s normal dose, I ended up turning into the vine of Ayahuasca.  I could see my body, right before my eyes, changing into this dark color with and a rough texture.  A big message I got was that I didn’t need to drink anymore.  I could if I wanted and it would be my choice.  What she was telling me was that I don’t need to drink to connect with her.  It was very humbling and I considered her words until this first ceremony.  I wanted to see her again.  I wanted to be in her dimension.  But I had more work to do first, apparently.

I’ll give you the short of it.  I purged heavily this night.  Sorry for the graphics but this is Ayahuasca reality, please don’t judge it until you’ve tried it and  have seen the amazing healing you can experience.  It’s hard work but it’s well worth it in the end.  I had profound things come to me.  The pain was tremendous, there was no comfort zone and I was beginning to doubt my decision to drink.  And I had to be up early and ready for the first day of retreat preparation.  Dear God what had I done?  But I had a day to recover.  All the coordination went without a hitch and I was feeling better and better about the first day of the retreat.

I had already decided I wasn’t going to do another ceremony.  I really needed rest and to make sure I had my wits about me for when the guests came.  It was my turn to turn up the volume and play the big coordinator.  But something shifted the day of that 2nd ceremony.  Something shifted in me and I found myself making a last minute decision to drink.  There was an unmistakable pull to this next ceremony that would be hard to ignore. This was yet another brew that had been reduced further.  This was called the Pituco batch.

I told Gary that I felt that this was going to be an interesting night but wasn’t sure why.  I just went with it.  Even though I was tired from two nights ago, I was excited to give this journey over to the Mother.  I set no intentions other than for her to show me exactly what I needed to see.  No agenda’s, no desire to control the journey.  I wanted to really be on this journey with her.  We sang our Icaros and said our prayers into the medicine we had chosen to drink.  We poured our portions, prayed over our glasses and then drank our dose.  This Ayahuasca brew was vastly different from ours.  It was of a thinner constitution (which usually means you need to drink more to feel the medicine) and it had this really interesting and intense lemon flavor to it.  Ayahuasca has many times been liked to molasses, sweet yet very earthy tasting.  It didn’t take long for the medicine to hit.  I think it was about 40 minutes.  I very quickly lost track of all time and I could feel my body slipping into Madre’s dimension.  Gary and I were both commenting on how we thought we might need more but we were both dead wrong.

The visions came on very strong. The body sensations came on even stronger.  I knew I was due to purge more but almost wasn’t prepared for what I was about to go through.  Could this be another rebirth?  The visions, like I said before, were very strong.   It actually was very much like doing straight DMT, which is the plant chemical that activates your pineal gland and gives you all the pretty colors and patterns and many more things within your journey.  The hard part is if the medicine is really strong in your body, sometimes it’s hard to even focus on the visions.  That was case with me this night.  The light show was awesome. But I told Madre that I was grateful but I was ready to do some processing.  It wasn’t long after that that my first purge came.  Several upheavals later and all that came out was energy.  They were energy balls coming out of my stomach.  I could barely hold myself up but my stomach finally started calming down.  That was a tough round.  I’ll spare you all the gory details but what ended up coming out of me through three long and hard rounds of vomiting was nothing short of some of the toughest energies that I have been having a hard time getting rid of.  Much of what came up in the later purges was solid material.  THAT has never happened to me in a vomiting purge before.  I had a mostly empty stomach so I was hard pressed to understand what that material was that came from it.  These energies have been built up for years and coming out through my back injury.  My back injury occurred at a time when my life in Dallas was really beginning to fall apart.

I finally made it through the purging rounds and was then very pleasantly taken into a mode of where I could process.  I was brought several pieces of amazing information which included:  an idea for a new business, a true relinquishing of fear for many things on such deep and debilitating levels, the removing of the chord that was locking these energies, the realization that I should have been a DJ many years ago.  I love, love music and I especially love trance music of all kinds.  Many of our Icaros this night were deep trance songs with complicated sound mixing.  Each nuance in the song would bring on a purge or spark vision of what you needed to address.  As the music would change, sometimes traditional Icaros (Ayahuasca songs used to direct the energy of the plant spirit of Ayahuasca), sometimes trance music on several levels, so would the direction of my journey.  It was magical.  I was shown how extremely difficult purging that I just gone through had actually broken me through this important barrier.  I was no longer afraid.  I saw a full vision of this business with very specific requirements.  Those requirements are:  it has to be fun, it has to involve music and it has to be solidly based on service to the greater good.  The feeling was so solid.  What had just happened to me?  Not long ago I couldn’t even dream of owning a business on this level.  I had had small businesses in the past but I didn’t have the confidence or love of myself to allow them to really grow and expand.  I wasn’t completely convinced that they were the things I needed to be doing.

This felt amazing.  I was finally realizing some deep passions within myself and watching this incredible merging of my desires within my energetic signature.  I realized that I had achieved, once again but on a different level, the dream that I’ve been dreaming since being completely broken in my Dark Night of the Soul days.  I had come a long way.  I have mostly relinquished that debilitating fear that had kept me from coming into my own true and unique power once again.  And I was finishing this journey off by myself.  That doesn’t mean that I’ve been alone.  I owe a tremendous amount of gratitude to many people who have been following my journey, encouraging me along the way, sending healing on a dime when I request it and mostly for just being incredibly unique and wonderful people.  I bow to all of you.  I believe you all helped me to find that endless connection to my strength source that is changing me so rapidly that it’s hard to keep up.  I didn’t have to be afraid anymore.  I saw myself behind a DJ’s table mixing incredible music and assisting people in reaching their joy and healing.  I don’t know how all this would form or even if that would be what I end up doing.  What is important is that I’ve been healed and  re-wired and now my journey is becoming even more clear by the day.  I don’t exactly know where I’m going to end up but what I do know is that where I end up is exactly where I’m supposed to be.

At another point of my journey I came back from the bathroom on one of my purging journeys.  It was hard to navigate with all the bright visions occurring in the dark.  I made it to my matt to find this energy of an African woman laying on my matt.  Her appearance to my eyes was that of all these dots of color.  I could see a form.  She was a black woman, very short and very fat.  I said hello to her and humbly asked her if I could lay down on my matt.  She said, “Go right ahead!  That’s what it’s for!”  I realized I was going to lay right on her so I cautiously knelt down.  I turned to sit on my matt and saw these other light beings coming to do more healing on me.  I realized that I needed to lay on this woman from Africa as that was part of the plan.  I would absorb her into me and the other being would be doing other healing work.  It wasn’t long after I laid down and I began my final purge that lasted for several minutes, and it was unlike any purging I had ever done.  I was miserable but I knew I needed to get rid of all of it this time.  This was how Mother Ayahuasca was preparing me to run this retreat center.  Perfect timing being just two days away from jump out of the gate.

As this and other processes ran through my brain it was all great information and very productive work.  My body felt clean.  The music continued to take me on yet another journey which brought on more thought processes.  One of them was the realization that I had accomplished a very important thing and the sky was now going to be the limit.  I began to dance to the music.  I started doing this Tai Chi style dancing and amazingly keeping my balance the whole time as I kicked and chopped and balanced on one leg in several moves.  I felt like I had done this before.  The Dragon, I believe has truly emerged.  I’m a Dragon in chinese astrology.  I’m readying myself for the next leg of my journey which I have no idea where it’s going to take me but I know it’s going to be exciting.  I can just feel it.

I know, also, that living life in the jungle has played a big part in this.  Living this rugged life has taught me more self-reliance, less excuses for being lazy, no desire to self-judge anymore and true desire to enjoy every possible moment even if it’s miserable.  I look in the mirror and I can smile at myself and give myself and hug and thank myself for hanging in there all these years.  It’s been a long and tough recovery but I made it.  I’m clean and free of the bullshit lies that we are told that we not good enough, or talented enough, or smart enough or whatever not enough (and many more lies).  Hell, that was another thing that Madre brought to me.  She showed me how much I have judged my own intelligence and how my IQ was much higher than what I judged myself to be.  She also showed me where much of my higher intelligence exists.  It exists within my intuition, within my knowing.  It is what helps connect my mind to my heart so that I’m operating from higher sources rather than my lower astral fields, which were programmed and learned practices.  I could go on about this.  This was a big shift for me.  This is the reason why I came back to Tierra Vida.

That realization alone began to send me into the best part of this journey.  I went into some beautiful emotional ecstasy.  I had worked hard for this moment and now I was free to be.   I danced some more.  I received more amazing information.  I reveled in my new skin.  Yeah, I shed some really old and tough skin.  I predicted this would happen before leaving Ollantaytambo.  I just didn’t know how it would all look.  Well, I did have glimpses but I try not to build up any unnecessary expectations.  Better to be empty and flowing than always trying to calculate and manipulate.

Well, if you made it this far then I give you infinite gold stars on all your fore-heads.  This is actually the best part yet to come.  As I was reflecting and dinking around on my computer entering shopping, labor and gas totals into my spreadsheet, I remembered an I Ching reading that I had done online before leaving Ollantaytambo and embarking on this next difficult phase.  The reading was actually amazing and it gave me a lot of strength moving forward to take on this job.  Well, I decided to open it up again and refresh my memory.  Oh man, the reading jumped out at me on every level.  Everything it foretold has been happening.  And so much of it physically corresponded to the geography of where I’m at.  You’ll see what I mean below.  It was like the reading was in living color, pulsing and flashing like I had reached a special point of awareness.  Here’s the reading and my personal analysis.  BTW, I have not used I Ching for years.  I began to reconnect with the I Ching back in 2006 but now I was ready to fully respect and use this medium with the highest of intentions.  You don’t want to just play with the I Ching and ask it pointless questions and questions of ego, so I only ask the important questions with this medium and I accept whatever answer comes because I know it’s accurate.

I Ching Reading for Steven Borges

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QUESTION:  What will be the effects of my working at Tierra Vida from December 2011 through April of 2012?

First hexagram I drew was 45, Ts’ui/Gathering.  Here’s what it said:

The Lake rises by welcoming and receiving Earth’s waters:  The King approaches his temple.  It is wise to seek audience with him there.

Success follows this course.  Making an offering will seal your good fortune.  A goal will be realized now.

SITUATION ANALYSIS:

This is an important Convergence, and you must be part of it.  Look for the Center of this convergence.  Like waters running to the sea, like an astronomical convergence of planets revolving around the sun, you should let the gravity of this Center draw you near.  Others are also drawn to this Center, and among them you will find shared bonds and kindred spirits.  This tribal convergence will give you a clarity of purpose.  You will no longer be alone.

My analysis.  Are you kidding?  Holy transformation Batman!

“The Lake rises by welcoming and receiving Earth’s waters”.  First, Tierra Vida is on the beautiful Yarina Cocha Lake.  The lake is fed by a channel from the larger rio to the North and West called the Ucayali River.  In the dry season the channel dries up and the lake levels drop dramatically.  But we’re in the rainy season.  The lake has risen  dramatically twice since I’ve been hear.  Coincidence?  I know not!

“The King approaches his temple”.  That’s me coming to Tierra Vida face the healing of this difficult energy I’ve been battling for too many years.  Plus I ended up moving into Jill and Casey’s house, which is very large with two levels.  It’s the castle of the retreat, basically.  It sits about 15 feet off the ground, has a fridge (which we mostly use for retreat food), power from the village and solar battery power to run the fridge and charge electronics.  This is like my temple right now.  Here I come to meditate, do Chi Qong, work with the budget, have alone time, etc.  I’m very blessed already for taking on this role.  I can keep this place exactly how I like it and that’s CLEAN!!!!

“It is wise to seek the audience with him there”.  Roger that!  Being with myself, loving being with myself, being in relationship with myself first, growing, expanding, shedding, lightening, ascending.  I’m on it!

“Success follows this course.  Making an offering will seal your good fortune.  A goal will be realized.”  Couldn’t have said it better myself.  I’ve been successful in reaching a long awaiting goal of truly loving myself and stepping out of the fear bubble.  This goal has been realized.  Albeit, I didn’t realize it would come this fast but January HAS been a transformative month.  I think many of us can attest to it.  It’s been trying.  We’re all being squeezed to deal with out stuff, face it, feel it, be with it and then it the funk go!  It’s time.  Who are we?  We are a very unique race of beings facing a very transformative time and we either get on board or we, and hopefully with joy, continue on our present course.  I’m headed straight for the next transition point and I’m excited!

“This is an important Convergence, and you must be part of it.  Look for the Center of this convergence.  Like waters running to the sea, like an astronomical convergence of planets revolving around the sun, you should let the gravity of this Center draw you near.  Others are also drawn to this Center, and among them you will find shared bonds and kindred spirits.  This tribal convergence will give you a clarity of purpose.  You will no longer be alone.”   I have been converging with many souls since being here.  And I’m not just talking about the retreat guests and the staff.  I’m talking about souls in Yarina and Pulcallpa.  They may not know better but they are a part of me whether I like it or not.  I may not enjoy seeing their poverty or simple-mindedness about because it creates big organizational problems, but I adore their simplicity.  I adore seeing the naked kids playing in a big water puddle or two little kids playing marbles and giggling the whole time.  I sense a tremendous lack of awareness of what may be going on right now but I also sense they have a deep awareness of who they are.  I don’t see lingering baggage.  Get it out and get it over with.  Don’t hang on to it.  They do it well.  The Center of this convergence is Tierra Vida Healing Center.  This has felt like a tribal convergence.  Each person coming with their specific issues they want to work on.  Some have been working with Ayahuasca since September attending retreat after retreat.  One has two more retreats to go through before heading to her next destination of India.  I’ve connect with every person on some level and they have helped color my purpose even brighter.  We’re giving to each other even if we aren’t in the best space or are in some kind of pain or discomfort.  These people converge together as strangers and end up leaving as friends on many occasions.  You have people of many geographic locations that come here.  You have many different vocations represented from massage therapists, to attorneys, to contract nurses, to pool maintenance owners.  The spectrum has no boundaries and many leave with the experience of seeing and feeling why we are all connected and one with everything.  It’s very beautiful to watch.  The convergence is giving a clarity of purpose.  It’s not totally defined yet but it seems to be coming in clearer and clearer the more I do this work right now.  For the first time in many years, I don’t feel alone even when I’m alone.  Sorry, but THAT’S A BIG ONE!

OK, I know this is long but I feel like some of you are going to connect to this, so bare with me.  The last hexagram had a changing line in it.  That means another hexagram is drawn when the changing lines are triggered and you are to receive more detailed information.  Here’s the result of that changing line:

Changing Lines:

There are Three Changing Lines.  The Middle Line applies.

Hexagram Forty-Five/Line Four:  No one will begrudge you the good fortune ahead.

My analysis:  What’s there to analyze?  This is great news and means I’m being protected and my obstacles are being removed.  Thank you, Ganesha!!

The next hexagram drawn had no changing lines and is, I believe, I don’t have the instructions on my computer, but if I remember correctly, it was another aspect of the first hexagram.  I need to check that next time I have time.  This was it.  This is the last of the reading.  And I was not disappointed:

Transformed Hexagram:

42 – Forty-Two

I / Expansion

Whirlwinds and Thunder:  When the Superior Person encounters saintly behavior, he adopts it; when he encounters a fault within, he transforms it.  Progress in every endeavor.  You may cross to the far shore.

SITUATION ANALYSIS:

Get ready to ride a tide of accelerated growth toward self-actualization. A joyful awareness of the best within you, coupled with an acceptance of your Shadow, will provide a greater repertoire, a much bolder vision, and new depth and clarity that will compel you to expand your horizons.

My analysis:  “Whirlwinds and Thunder…”.  I’ve been doing nothing but transforming and transmitting and subconsciously using my tools on many occasions.  I’ve been seeing ease, progress, success through challenges and a flow of energy that is feeding the true purpose of this retreat center.  I tune into what I need to do and it may seem ridiculous but it seems to work.  No text books, no gurus, no workshops…just you, you and you!  I’m reading myself for a tide of growth toward self-actualization.  I feel like I’m getting very close.  What a superb feeling, for once!

Welp, there ya have it everyone!  If you’re interested in working respectfully with the I Ching and you connect with it then go to this website and engage freely, no charge.  Just read the instructions and then continue with your question.  The web address is:  http://www.ichingonline.net.  I knew this journey back to the jungle was going to be one of the biggest transformations that I would go through in this life time and I am actually alive, in it, feeling it, seeing and being it!  This brings up the questions.  What’s in store for the next 4 months?  Who cares!  Be in the now, Steve.  Be present and expect the unexpected.  Or hell, you can even drop that attachment to the unexpected while we’re at it.  Sweet dreams, everyone!